Game

I want to scream
But there is no way to repair the seam
That has ripped
And torn
With sadness
And scorn

Why do I wander by myself?
Spinning in circles shouting silently to the stars that don't care.
No matter how loud the music plays
It cannot drown out the anger and hurt

Do you think my tears are empty?
Do you know they are real?

How many times has talking not worked?
How much more will screaming hurt?

WHY CAN'T YOU HEAR ME?!

HEY!  LISTEN!

Don't swat,
And bat,
And avoid,
And push,
And shove,
And crush.

The letter means I love you.
Have you forgotten?
Have you all forgotten?
Of course you have.
No one wants to remember the leech,
The victim,
The horrid, ugly, evil, hypocrite.

The baby.

I want to let loose my lungs, my air, my sustenance
And scream
But it won't do any good
To stab someone wounded

So I cling to the shroud of silence
Clenching bloody half moons into my palms
Biting dents into my bones.

I'm falling apart
And my rocks are sand
I trip when I stand,
And tumble when I fly
I no longer recognize the feeling of the sky.
My wings are gone,
My memory's lost,
My tears have mistaken their trust.

I can't sing,
I can't play,
Is there nothing I can say that will make you believe how broken I feel?

The skeleton key
I'm sure you see
Why can't you unlock my heart?
My beaten and bleeding mechanical life.
The ticking and tocking of hate
Pumps cells and pains
Through all my veins
Wishing you would care more.
So when I ran,
You would chase me
Because I want to be found when I'm lost.
My greatest fear is losing you,
But if I cling too hard, you'll melt away,
If I don't hold tight, you mistake my strength.

I hate you.

I love you.

Some game, huh?